Happy Birthday Maria!!

My dearest mother,

 

Where are you when I need you the most?  Why is it you had to be taken from me so soon in life, I have so much still that I need to learn from you...I still have so much that I need you to help me to understand.  You have no idea how much I miss you, I need you more then anything in this world right now, I've lost all my family, I've lost the one and only man I want to be with...the greatest man I've ever met...please help me in any way you can.  I need some guidence, I need your strength, because I fear that I may not have enough to face what's to come.  I need some of your wisdom, I need your smile, your laugh, your love again mama...I miss you terribly.  Please help me.

 

Blessed Be,

~Your Baby Girl

Victoria Rose and I wish to send thoughts and prayers to all Matellis, Rhodes and extended family and friends during this season of celebration.  It will be tough for all of us, but together we can get through it.  It's time to celebrate Maria's life and to be thankful that she is with her husband and our Father in Heaven.  I love you all!

Mother,

The song that is playing...Hero...is so you. You are my hero mama, you always were.  You will never be gone from our lives, fore even though you are gone in physical form, you will always remain here in spirit and in our hearts.  I was always talking about Immortals and everything...

Mama you are an Immortal.  You will always live on in our hearts and souls, our children will be told about you and your amazing strength.  Everything you overcame, everything you did.  No matter what Mother, you will always be here with us.

PLEASE DON'T FORGET...

YOU ARE MY HERO FOR ALL TIME MOM!!!  AND I WILL LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!!

Much Love and Many Blessings,

~Kristina Marie~

God looked around His garden and found an empty place,
He then looked down upon this earth and saw your tired face.
He put His arms around you and lifted you to rest.
God's garden must be beautiful, He always takes the best.
He knew that you were suffering, He knew you were in pain.
He knew that you would never get well on earth again. He saw
the road was getting rough and the hills too hard to climb. He
closed your weary eyelids and whispered "Peace be Thine"
It broke our hearts to lose you but you didn't go alone. Part
of us went with you the day Christ took you home.

My mother was one strong person, she was the strongest I ever knew.

                 She never knew the meaning of weak, she always called herself a pansy but she was far from that

                 My mother had a strength very few can even imagine

Her love and devotion went beyond her blood children and her blood family; she had a special kind of love that many people only dreamed of

                 My mother was not only strong but she was a beautiful person, her laugh, her smile, her easy going charm and her compassion

                My mother's strength had to come very early, but once it did...it never left...even until her last hour.

                MY MOTHER IS THE STRONGEST BEING I HAVE EVER MET!!!  NOBODY WILL EVER COMPARE TO THE KIND OF STRENGTH AND CARING AND DEVOTION SHE HAS!!  I BELIEVE MY MOTHER IS HAPPY WHERE SHE IS BUT I ONLY HOPE SHE WILL STILL STOP BY AND SAY HI TO US EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE.

                 Much Love and Many Blessings My Dearest Mother,

                                     ~Kristina Marie~

Hello Mama,

I just wanted to write you and tell you how things are going.  I'm going back to Junction, as it turns out it didn't work out as well as I would have liked.  I miss you and dad so much Mama, especially you.  I cannot talk long but I wanted to let you know that I love you and I miss you mama.  Always and forever.

Much Love Always and Forever,

~Your Baby Girl~

Hello Mama, I have missed you so much lately, I love you always and forever.  I am thinking about going home, I miss being able to see you and daddy, you were the only one who even agreed with me when I wanted to go see daddy, and I know you wanted to go also but I know daddy would have understood, nobody thought I was able to take care of myself other than you, you even agreed that I was the only one out of the three of us who could take care of myself, and I am doing pretty good.  I remember everything you taught me about budgeting, and about saving, and being extremely careful with no matter what I do, I remember everything you ever tried to teach me, I believe you are always with me mama, but it's not the same.  I wish I could see you, to talk to you, you were the only one who made me feel like I actually belonged there in that family, I never thought you guys cared, I always thought you guys thought I was going to turn out to be a screw up, but I'm not and it's all because of you mama.  There is so many questions I the answers to, one that I have been contemplating lately is why am I being punished like this?  In a matter of DAYS I lose nearly everyone I ever loved and cared for, I lose you, and then I lose Chris, and then Becca and Robert disown me because I want to try and better myself.  I don't understand why this punishment had to come so harsh, this is supposed to make me stronger but I feel nothing but weakness, nothing but hurt and loss, what kind of strength can come from that?

 

Much Love and Many Blessings,

~Your Baby Girl~

Mama, I miss you terribly.  I have done so much already since you left, I am hoping so much to make you and daddy proud.  I have been told that I already have but in my heart it doesn't seem like it, I love you with all my heart and soul mother, I miss you so much that it tears me into pieces, and I don't know how to take it anymore.  I need you next to me to guide me and to help me, I know you are in spirit but it's not the same.  I wish we could go back to the way it used to be and be able to talk every night after work as we did before, and be able to ask you for advice as like before, and be able to come to you and cry in front of you and not feel ashamed about it.  When I was having my problems with Chris you were the only one of the family who would listen to me, you were and to be honest, still are the only one I can trust with most of my secrets.  I miss you terribly mama, and I hope you know that I still love you every moment of every day I will always love and miss you!!

 

Much Love and Many Blessings,

~Kirsarehna Marie~

hey~

i miss you so much and i feel sad that everyone that lost you is in grief because i am still and the most i feel sad on is that i have so many questions that i wanna ask  or wanted to ask you and just did not know how to ask them until you died that night when you did pass i didnt know what to think..

I MISS YOU!